Thursday, September 30, 2010

Chicken Little was right

We lay on a carpet of moss
as saints shone down through
maple and oak leaves.

Vines intertwined with shadows
and choked at our feet.

Our beards grew at an alarming rate.

A sparrow fell dead beside
our heads and God barely glanced
up.

Chicken Little ran out of hiding
and sang us a song.

Our tongues forked
as snakes slithered between our thighs.

We sewed our skin together
with porcupine pins and plastic threads.

My femur erupted in ash and silence.

Our speak was violence.

Lightning burst and-

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Sparrow

A sparrow once died in my hands,
its eyes glazed over like ice on a lake.
I could feel the heartbeat slow and
stutter out. I cupped the body of feathers
and beak, breathing softly on the fledging
that was torn from the cusp of flight.

My hands trembled as I dug a shallow grave
next to my mother's garden. I marked it with
a stone the size of my fist, a monument to
fallen sparrows, discarded and forgotten
in tall grasses, in spring rain, in winter's snow,
abandoned by mortality and God's
ghostly hand.

My Roots

My roots extend deep into Michigan's soil. They have been burrowing since the day I was born.

My roots are taking walks with my grandmother downtown, the flowers and fountain in the middle of the park that drew me in. My roots are basketballs on the basement floor, metal bat-mobiles and tricycles.

My roots are curled up in the back of my fathers station wagon, looking at stars through telescopes. My roots are playing freeze tag and hide and seek, scavenger hunts and face painting. My roots are water gun fights, watermelon seed spitting contests.

My roots are learning to ride a bike, holding neighborhood races that spanned the distance of one block. My roots are climbing pine trees in my back yard, building forts in the ones across the street. My roots are building dams when it rained, stopping up the water with sand, smashing it all with chunks of concrete.

My roots are private school playgrounds, steel slides and monkey bars. My roots are going to the library and carrying as many books as I could home. My roots are sweat pants and sweaters.

My roots are catching crayfish in the creek at Milham park with my bare hands, scooping tadpoles with yogurt containers. My roots are picnics and feeding ducks, running through groups of geese with my arms waving.

My roots are camping at Van Buren in my grandparents old canvas tent, running up and down the dunes, diving into the waves of Lake Michigan. My roots are watching my father build a fire, collecting sticks and dead brush to feed it. My roots are burnt marsh-mellows and kerosene lamps, katy-dids and crickets.

My roots are frying ants and leaves with a magnifying glass, cutting earthworms in half to watch the two halves squirm, rolling pill-bugs between my fingers. My roots are picking blackberries and strawberries from my mothers garden, stealing mulberries from my neighbors trees. My roots are baking pies and eating rhubarb.

My roots are snow angels and snow-forts, tunnels burrowed into snowbanks. My roots are snow ball fights and snow-men. My roots are hot chocolate that was waiting on the stove for me when I came in from the cold, blankets and quilts that my grandmother made me.

My roots are raking leaves into piles, jumping out of trees into them, burying myself in them. My roots are hayrides and harvest festivals, three-legged and potato sack races. My roots are bobbing for apples, searching for candy bars with flashlights in the dark.

My roots are setting up the christmas tree, decorating it with dozens of colorful ornaments, setting up the model train track around the tree and watching it chug along. My roots are Christmas morning breakfasts, egg casseroles and slices of ham, crackers and cheese.

My roots center me, station me here. My roots are ever-growing, digging and twisting. My roots are myself, are my family, are my childhood and adulthood, my friends, my experiences. My roots will never be severed, only momentarily forgotten.